I gave her a lavender bath and the hives seem fine now, but i can't really take her back to school, so... sigh.

I usually do clean up. I don't have my own dog, it died. I can't get over my borderline hate for the one my parents have, which makes dealing with it all that much harder.
Usually I clean it up, it ALWAYS pees in my room, so I am always the one who has to clean it. This morning I woke up 30min late for work already, that was the other reason I asked her to clean it. I didn't even get breakfast this AM.

Don't waste energy hating a dog. They will love you anyway.

best friend, lump in boob, specialist did not put on happy-it-might-be-a-cyst face.

Don't fret too much Monster! I had a scary go about ten years ago but after sending the offending lump to three labs they determined it was "nothing". :rolleyes:

Mon, hope all turns out well. No use in freaking out, of course not somethin thats easy to control. Try keeping busy, and spending as much time with your friend as you can.

Monday morning. Same class. Same boring and poorly done Al Gore movie. Different computer. Turn it on before leaving the store room. Works. Carry all crap to class room (1/2 km). Connect all cables. Insert DVD.

Error. Software does not have converter to play this media. Go #%@& yourself, human.

I had to borrow a laptop from one of the students to finally play the bloody thing.

This is not okay.

what a bitch.

what a bitch.;)

I was just visiting my sister. Her neighbor's son is one of the peanut-allergic boys who was at my nephews birthday party recently. What's upsetting me is that her just turned 2 year old child was found unresponsive in his crib on Thursday.... he was diagnosed with ADEM today.

I know this is bad, but what is ADEM?

From Wiki

Acute disseminated encephalomyelitis (ADEM) is an immune mediated disease of the brain.[1][2][3] It usually occurs following a viral infection but may appear following vaccination, bacterial or parasitic infection, or even appear spontaneously. As it involves autoimmune demyelination, it is similar to multiple sclerosis, and is considered part of the Multiple sclerosis borderline[4][5] diseases. The incidence rate is about 0.8 per 100,000 people per year.[6]. Although it occurs in all ages, most reported cases are in children and adolescents, with the average age around 5 to 8 years old.[7][8][9] The mortality rate may be as high as 5%, full recovery is seen in 50 to 75% of cases, while up to 70 to 90% recover with some minor residual disability.[10] The average time to recover is one to six months.

ADEM produces multiple inflammatory lesions in the brain and spinal cord, particularly in the white matter. Usually these are found in the subcortical and central white matter and cortical gray-white junction of both cerebral hemispheres, cerebellum, brainstem, and spinal cord,[11] but periventricular white matter and gray matter of the cortex, thalami and basal ganglia may also be involved.

When the patient suffers more than one demyelinating episode, it is called Recurrent disseminated encephalomyelitis[12] or Multiphasic disseminated encephalomyelitis[13](MDEM).

Acute Disseminated Encephalomyelitis. Sometimes call Post infectious or post vaccination encephalomyelitis.

The good news is that there is a good chance that your friends son will recover fully. I hope this is the case. His parents must be out of their minds right now. :(

:( :(

friend got mamogram today, more lumps discovered, looks bad, biopsy rescheduled for tomorrow because it will take 4 hours.

No biopsy today means she didn't need me today. Tomorrow she does, but I can't be there....

This stupid disease needs nailing. It takes too many good people and seems (to me) to be on the increase This woman has the healthiest diet I have ever seen, she's beating herself up over being a smoker for a couple of years at Uni.

fuck it.

ADEM, in (relatively) plain English, seems to be that the lad's immune system is attacking the insulation around the wires inside his brain.
As Ali says, good recovery rates.

Best wishes for your friend, monster.

Jinx -- is it your nephew, or your sister's neighbor's son that was diagnosed with ADEM? Either way, I hope everything works out okay.

Mum.

SHOUTING AT DAD.
Crikey me, it's not his fault he can't hear her. Her hearing is perfect (as near as I can tell) and his is not. Neither is mine.

She goes from normal level speaking, to SHOUTING when Dad says, "Eh?" (Sarf London response meaning, "I'm sorry, please repeat yourself, I'm afraid I didn't hear.")

Example:
I hear: Did you blah blah mumble mumble [Sky News in background] whatever?
Dad: Did I what, sorry?
Mum: DID. YOU. ASK. MY. DAD. IF. HE. NEEDS. ANY. THING. FROM. TES. CO?
Dad: Oh yeah, yeah, gonna get him some milk and -
Mum [interrupts] You'd have heard me if you'd turned the television off. Oh no, too much trouble, bloody deafo
Me: [silently dies...]

She doesn't do it to me. Thank goodness. I'd be torn between hiding in my bedroom and crying and thrusting smallprint under her nose and saying, "Read that now, read it, go on read it you shortsighted idiot!"

But she undermines Dad about 10 times a day by mocking his lack of hearing. And she makes a dyslexic man (still my Dad, here) READ most of the programmes they watch on TV, by having the sound so low. I can't hear it either - I ask to have the words on, or the volume up whenever I watch too.

I know they have survived 41 years of marriage. I know she has been like this the whole time and Dad has survived. And I know Dad is not a saint (it's been good seeing he has flaws too - I've lost some of my hero worship but regained some realtionship reality). But it really, really shits me. Y'know?

I am damn near deaf myself. (Dr. says I need hearing aids in BOTH ears) I can relate to this. People just don't understand unless they experience things personally. I find myself wishing (almost daily) that some people would become hearing impaired for three to five days and then recover. Sure, having the TV loud contributes to our not hearing folks. But the reason it's loud is than we're fucking deaf. Sheesh. Shit.

That is the main reason I love internet. Because I don't have to be embarrased by saying "huh", "what", and "excuse me" continuously.

:lol2:

Huh?

i think your sig line is amusing her in light of the topic....

The breast cancer is confirmed, now we just await to hear how bad, but apparently the tumor is affecting the nerve and so the biopsies were excruciating despite the local. :( I totally hate this. i'm really worried because although my friend admitted she doesn't do monthly exams, i know she's a health freak and always at the doc and she's noticed changes over the last week since she found the lump, so i think it's a fast-acting bastard.....

I hate this.

She's gutted. She could barely talk to me tonight.

I really fucking hate this.

Thanks for listening

Obviously we posted at the same time... which is why I deleted the above post.
Sorry, Mon.... hang in there. Get well vibes to your friend.

Oh monnie, I'm so very sorry. It's going to be a very rough ride. :(
Best wishes for your friend.

Shit. :(

Mon, my best to you and your friend.

Oh Monnie. What a horrible situation. My best wishes to your friend. And to you. It's never easy to watch a good friend go through something like this.

Sorry to hear that Monster.
Fucking cancer.

My thoughts are with you and your friend, monnie.

Let us know when you find out what kind of CA this is...and SG is right. Fucking cancer.

Sucks.

I'm so sorry, monster. I hope you are able to provide her some comfort and support.

I'll reiterate: fucking cancer.

I'm sorry, monster. It's good she has a friend like you.

So sorry to hear, monster. :( Best wishes for your friend, for you, and for the families.

what they all said.

Me too. Cancer sucks. Fucking cancer.

yeah Fuck cancer. thanks all. I don't officially have the go-ahead to tell other people, that's why i'm crying to you lot because you don't know her so that can't hurt, right?

She sounded a little better today and hopefully I will see her tomorrow ....but she's meeting with the specialist first thing to get the biopsy results and whatever, so she may duck out...

stoopit fucking potato disease

Fuck cancer.

The neighbor boy is improving. He has recovered his sight and was moving his arms slightly today.

well that's good to hear, jinx. i hope the trend continues

Tell your dad that footfootfoot says he needs to keep his pimp hand strong, it's never too late. And as a bonus he will be gettin his freak on like he never imagined. You be wishing you was deaf after that.

And as for fucking cancer:
"Not with your dick and Mike pushing."

As they say.

I lost my wife of 16 years to fucking cancer in the early nineties. Cancer don't care who the fuck you are.
More and more people are beating it these days. That's the good news. I really believe that in my grand children's lifetime it will be near totally treatable. Fuck the Hubble. Let's research cancer. And kick it's ass. To outer space.

Amen capn.


What's bugging me today...is that I got a D in some shitty religion class that I hated, and now I might lose my financial aid, a hefty sum $15,000.

Fuck.

oh and to monster: sorry about your friend. i hope everything turns out ok. sorry :(

That's shit Apollo :( Bad luck mate. Any other funding streams you can look at? Any chance of doing a resit on that class?

Drinking.
I am.
Sorry.

And Mum & Dad are ignoring me.
I'm hiding upstairs.
I wish they'd talk to me about it - I can't talk to them about it, I'm drunk.

Sorry again, I know people here have respected me for being sober.

Oh, Sundae. I'm sorry.

So sorry Sundae. Talk to us about it, we're always here for you, you know.
:grouphug:

It's going to be OK.

:(

No, hon, we respected your desire to be sober and more importantly your attempts to achieve that goal. Neither of those things have changed. Amongst other things. Hard to change your life in one fell swoop. Fits and starts. Steps forward, steps back.

Don't beat yourself up about it. Just set the next set of steps.

Exactly what Dana said. And actually, I respect you for being honest with us about it too. We love you for your hoensty, and your overwhelming desire to be happy against all odds. Don't beat yourself up, just start over when you can.

And BTW, Fuck cancer.

SG - Be upset with yourself.....

ok thats enough of that - now move on and get back on the horse you've chosen to ride. We'll still be here either way and our support will not diminish.
Oh, and listen to that manc tart Dana - she's got the right outlook.

Yeah! You mustn't feel bad about yourself SG. I believe glatt. It's going to be OK.

I'm sobering up now.
The attitude downstairs is very frosty though.

Maybe I'll talk to Mum tomorrow.
Drunk or not I'm still their daughter, and they're not enabling me to drink.
I can't drink tomorrow anyway - no money. All bills/ debts paid and I do have food. For me and the boy. And litter.

Felt I should say that - Diz doesn't suffer if I drink.
Only I do.

Not exactly upsetting, actually mildly amusing, but on Pilau's behalf I'd like to offer up the fact that it's blowing a gale and raining heavily outside. he is currently hiding under my desk. I can feel the vibrations from his shivering, through my feet.




he doesn't like weather.

Apologised to Mum re drinking.
Tried to have a proper chat with her.
She said, "I don't know why you do it either. All I know is it makes us not like you."
This effectively ended the conversation.
I've been hearing this all my life - "I can't love you if", "I don't like you when" etc etc.

I would like to point out that I am not violent when drunk. Nor abusive. I did not steal from my parents to fund my drinking, and I disposed of my cans myself. I hid in my room the whole time.

This does not make it right. Of course not! And the potential for the opposite (above) is sadly always there. Except the violent and abusive parts.

I just wish they were different. As I'm sure they do me.
Oh yeah, and I want to die.

As the wise man say, your parents really know how to push your buttons... after all, they installed them.

You may drink to avoid the pain of not being perfect, but who told you that you have to be perfect?

Nobody's perfect. Not even me.

next time, don't let it end the conversation. Next time tell her "I don't like myself either when I drink". Tell her what you're telling us. If you can't say it, write it down and mail her a letter. tell her "It's hard for a person to love themselves when they feel their parent's love is conditional" Tell her you want to be the person she likes all the time, but if she wants that too, she must support you in the way that helps you, not necessarily the way she feels is appropriate.

it really seems like you two could benefit from going to some counselling together.....

Do you recall a specific incident that caused this minor puncture in the wagon wheel?

they fnck you up, your mum and dad
they do not mean to but they do
they give you all the sh1t they had
and add some extra just for you .... Philip Larkin

UT and Monster have good things to say here, SG. Hugs to you.

Stress.

I have the opportunity to sell my practice to an associate for an amount that eliminates all of my debt save the house and one car. In this deal I would continue on as an employee with an solid payout on my production and would keep my current clients with no disruption to them beyond a change to the letterhead.

I'm tired and worn out from being "the decider" and truth be told I'm just kind of tired being entirely on my own. IfI don't like working with him (even though we've worked together loosely for years) I can walk away and start over after 24 months with my clients intact. It shouldn't be that hard of a decision but there is just something gut churning about giving up the "I own my company" bit. :(