I'm sorry about your troops, Sarge.

Man... I can't agree with you about "God knows....". I am glad you're still around, not dead. So's JBK, and the rest of the cellar. And what about your kids? And what about your lost troops? Would they wish you'd died?

Miss them, mourn them, honor them... I know you do. I know man.

the month of November is very hard on me. I lost 5 troops this month in 2005. sorry, I was sloshed last night

Don't apologise Sarge. But know that there's lots of people who are glad you're still with us. As Big V says: it's ok to mourn your troops and honour their memory here. X

Sent by thought transference

Y'all are sweet

Sending hugs, Sarge. This has to be a hard month, but know that we love you and are glad you're still here. The other life will wait. You still have people here. xx

I know. I hadn't had anything to drink in a long time and I had a little pity party. I will try to do better because I made a promise not to mix my meds and alcohol

You're a good man Sarge. Please take care of yourself.

After revelations this evening, plus the unwelcome, unwanted visits from two of my father's evil step-daughters (no, they're no relation to me and never will be), I suspect tonight will be a nap and not a sleep.

Honestly. Who steals a man's home from him, leaves him destitute, ignores him for four years, and then turns up the night before he departs, offering hugs, kisses, cards, and three-page letters full of bullshit?

Sociopaths, that's who. These women really think they're good people. It's never occurred to them that stealing someone's assets and taking away his home would be a bad thing. How could it be, if they benefit from it?

They've complained to my dad that, with the house empty, insurance will go up. I'm so glad I can take him out of here. I'd have done it before, but he wasn't ready.

Here's a li'l something for you to read. It's about my old boss who retired earlier this year. He was instrumental in my being awarded a Meritorious Service Medal (MSM). I just recently came across this article (more good info and photos). Who says doctors can't be good administrators!

SPOILERS!

"During his time in Vietnam, Rocky worked as a medic on a recon team with 5th SFG(A) and SOG (Studies and Observations Group)—the joint SF-CIA project that always got talked about in hushed tones in all the cool action movies."

"Though he was selected for Master Sergeant, Farr was accepted into the Uniformed Services University of the Health Sciences for medical school and commissioned as a Second Lieutenant. Because medical school was a walk in the park for 2LT Farr, he earned the distinguished honor graduate of his Army flight surgeons course while attaining his solo qualification in the TH-55 helicopter. That’s right, this guy learned to fly a helicopter during med school and being the top student..."

"Since 1983, Farr has held nearly every medical command position imaginable in the United States Army, from the course director of the special operations medical sergeants course all the way to command surgeon of United States Special Operations Command in Tampa, Florida in 2006—a position he held until his retirement this year."

"The list of citations, awards, and schools Colonel Farr lays claim to is nothing short of astounding. CMB with a star, EIB, Pathfinder, Scuba, Legion of Merit, Army Meritorious Service Medal with five Oak Leaf Clusters, and a Bronze Star with “V” device with one Oak Leaf Cluster are just a few among the many, many accomplishments in this man’s time in uniform."

"Through his development of training and educational methods for both medics and Special Forces doctors, Farr was able to help push the Army medical field—most notably in special operations—forward by always using the latest and greatest technology and adapting with an ever-growing knowledge base in the field of practiced medicine."

"At the time of his retirement, Colonel Farr was one of only 13 still in the Army who had served in Vietnam and the third-longest serving soldier on Active Duty."

how long can you go without sleep?

264 hours, but there's a heavy price to pay.

The longest I went w/o sleep was 75 hours. I was beginning to hallucinate.

Yes, I have heard elsewhere that it's 10 days, and then you're dead.

I've gone 2 days. Maybe, I'll get some tonight

Sleep???