C'mon, have pity on the poor truck driver. He'd probably lose his job and his license, be unable to work, or even drive to unemployment. He couldn't pay the mortgage, and become homeless, and the bank would fail causing the town to collapse. Social services would scatter his children all over the state in mean foster homes, his wife would run off with a social worker, and his puppy and kitten would starve to death. You wouldn't want to be responsible for that would you? :o

Maybe it's time to stop worrying about anyone else but me. Good karma gets you nowhere. Perhaps the cheaters of the earth have a point.

But but but, we love you. :grouphug:

There's no such thing as good karma or bad karma. It's all karma.

I don't know what's upsetting me. or to put it more accurately everything is upsetting me. Y'know when you just find yourself crying for no reason? or for some stupid little thing that would never normally get to you? I'm flying off the handle at nothing. Swinging from elation to just...I dunno...feels like grief but there's nothing to grieve over. I didn't sleep at all last night. Wasn't down. Was too upbeat. Like my mind was going ten to the dozen and wouldn;t slow down. Just racing. Then bam! I'm angry or something. I dunno.

This isn;t like me. I;m sat here with fucking tears streaming down my face and I have no idea why. But I can't stop. I should be feeling happy. Things are going brilliantly. I almost poste din the Happy thread like half an hour ago, only didn;t because ,my AVG scan was running and I didn;t want to lo in.

I hope you feel better soon.

:comfort:

So do i. Thanks.

I think Pil's a bit worried. he keeps coming over to me to see what's up.

Awwww...ya know, I had a crappy day and I couldn't wait to get home, put on pajamas, and hang out with the cats. :)

Who's a good boy? Pilau is! Yes him is!

Did he get a load of Darla yet?

Heh. Darla reminds me of Pilau.

Y'know I am not sure which is worst; the crying, or the flying high.


he is a good boy. He's my little wolf.

I'd say "welcome to my world" but it sounds dismissive. ;)

Well, I guess I already said it. BUT, I was thinking...this isn't normal for you. You're very even keel.

Are there any anniversaries of any milestones or something? You know, something maybe you aren't thinking of outright but it's on your mind?

*shakes head* I don;t think so. That's what's worrying me.

I have been in states like this before, but not for a long time. It's bouncing between euphoria and tears that's getting to me. The 'up' isn' a comfortable up, it's more like a chemical high. Y'know, like when your jaw is clenched and your kind of a bit hyper? Then shoom! down so fast your stomach turns.

K. Talking about it is calming me down. I've stopped crying *smiles* hopefully I'll actually sleep tonight, though for the life of me I cannot currenty imagine feeling tired.

Thanks Shaw.

have you been to a doc and had bloodwork done? B12 deficiency? Bipolar? ALS? Menopause?

This is more of a "what is making you anxious" thing, but I don't feel like starting another of these type threads.

My sis is suppose to get the blood test results back tomorrow from her latest doc, the infectious disease doc. Hopefully they have finally been able to find what is causing her sickness.
One of the parent's of her students emailed her today asking if she could tutor their kid after school. WTF?
1) The kid can go to tutoring in the morning, the parent's just complain its a hassle.
2) She possibly has an contagious disease, and one that is breaking her down, but yet you want to expose your child to that?
3) If she was well enough to work, she would be working!


Also, I'm anxious for myself. I went to a new doc on Friday also cuz I had a fever and some sinus issues. He gave me meds for that, but also found that my thyroid feels enlarged. Might be the cause of my chronic fatigue, which I have been struggling with for....2yrs now, I think. So had blood tests and a sonogram of my thyroid. I hope they DO find something wrong, so that finally there will be something to fix, and I don't have to feel like its all my fault. Results for that "in a few days."

Dana and Shaw: its a hard struggle. I hope y'all both get to the root of your problems soon. :grouphug:

You both just need a man.



Someone to blame, then you wouldn't have to figure out what's up.:lol: