Oops, I meant selfish

Game on.

My college roommate was found to have ALS and it was kind of enlightening to finally realize: in this life, we all get the same sentence he does, he just knows what the sentence is.

There's John Ritter, has an aortic problem one day and just is suddenly dead, no warning. Is that better... I dunno...

Clod, my optimism is fatalistic. Always has been.

Ut, and there's that to think about.

So, I thought a bit on it, and....

There are a lot of different logistical, emotional and whatnot to go through when you know, but don't know when, or even if you did know when. It's fucking exhausting, and I fear, ongoing.

But, I am the super, over-analyzing queen. I'd prefer it to be out of nowhere and sudden.

And there this....https://m.curiosity.com/topics/luck-...ontent=link182

Count me in. I'd hate to be in the decider position although in all likelihood I will be someday.
Truth.

Ugghh.. Came here to say how many awful things happened in my little world and how tough 2016 was for me ... boo hoo hoo and all that.
Thanks for the readjusted perspective. 2016 terminated some bad things for me and 2017 is nothing less than a blank opportunity for me. I am fortunate that some people still talk to me, let alone actually love me. lol.
My life has been weird for the last 4-5 years. I feel like the last good year I had was 2011. I had 2 jobs in my life till then and since I've had 5 in 5 years. As I reflect upon why, I keep confusing my self worth with my employment. (Gotta work on that too)

Happy New Year all you degenerates. Keep on Keepin' on!
Pico - I' d like to give you a huge awkwardly long hug and just say thanks.