Juniper I learned today that one of the reasons I dislike my myself so much is a physical issue I had no choice about and can do virtually nothing about anyway.

It might be at the root of my depression, almost definitely at the bottom of my alcohol problem and undeniably the reason for my low self esteem. And finding this out hasn't helped at all. At least not yet, I just have to hope it will in future.

Please consider counselling. Not because you're "broken" in some way. Just because unless you understand why you over-achieve you might lose all of the things that are so important to you. And by lose I mean the ultimate loss. You might deny your children a mother and your husband a wife because you die young.

Hope that doesn't sound like I'm being a Premium Rated Bitch. But it would be worth it if you considered what's driving you and what yo uneed to address in order to slow down. Of course it might be simple and you can recognise it yourself. Good luck either way.

I woke up this morning with swollen lips that made me look like a . . . I don't know what, maybe a Dr. Seuss character. Gross! Last day of classes, too; hope I didn't miss much. Fortunately DH was off work today (and all weekend) so he got the kids off to school and I headed over to the ER.

I am told this is one of the BP med's possible allergic reactions, though rare. All ACE inhibitors, I'm told. Oh joy. So they gave me IV steroids and Benadryl, which totally knocked me out. I knew Benadryl could make people a little sleepy, but wow! So I slept all day and my car is still at the hospital.

Still swollen but better. I have a headache and I am still feeling pretty sorry for myself. I am sorry if I offended anyone the other day. I am not in a particularly good state emotionally right now. I feel...broken.

Got a doctor appt. tomorrow so I can have a different bp med. I hope I can get this all taken care of in time for our big Disney trip. I was already nervous about the trip and this isn't helping!

Sorry to hear that, Jupe, you MUST chill, though. Your degree will do you no good when you're dead, stressed people don't heal so fast.

I was in the hospital last night. seems to be the season. extreme sciatic pain they couldn't get under control at the urgent care clinic, so I got to ride in a big white ambulance after being ignored writing in agony for a couple of hours. It was finally under control enough for me to be able to sleep around 3am (after 6 pain meds and three nausea meds) so they woke me up and sent me home. that's private health care for ya! :lol: :p

what monster said, Juni. I am a firm believer that all things happen for a reason. For some reason, you are being asked to slow down. PLEASE! Try to relax - why are you nervous about the trip?

monster - sorry to hear about that; are you ok now? (Sent home with an Rx?) yeah, our health care system - it rocks, doesn't it? ;)

Lots of Rx's -all your faves :D Not mine, though. Now I just have pins and needles in my foot -I think the neve has untrapped itself as i was a good day and stayed in bed all day. the last med i took was half a percocet at 1pm. more precautionary than anything.

i'm telling you, though, I HAVE NEVER EVER EVER FELT PAIN LIKE THAT BEFOE AND I NEVER. EVER. WANT TO AGAIN. and I have has two bouts with sciatic nerve pain/back trouble before and 3 c-sections for which I took no pain killers. but thankfully it seems to be easy come easy go

Aw, I'm so sorry monster. I've had sciatic pain too, though mine is generally just little jabs that startle me but go away in a few moments. I can't imagine having that kind of pain for hours. Take care of yourself!

I have, have you? ;)

You might have a herniated/ruptured disc. At least that's what it sounds like to me. Was the pain in your back/leg, or your foot? it's unclear to me. I had a herniated disc and that's how it felt to me. I eventually had surgery. woke up and the pain was completely gone. woo hoo! it has come back over the years though, but nothing like it what it was originally.

Juniper, I don't know you, but damn! I hope you're feeling better!

Have I what? Taken care of myself? Sure. I'm going to the doctor now. Of course I've already been to the BMV this morning to renew some tags, and now I have to take my son to the doc with me because he's puking. It really doesn't ever stop. :) The swelling has gone down and I look normal again; I'll probably be fine if I stop taking the prednisone they gave me because that suppresses the immune system and I don't want what the boy has on top of everything.

Sweet mother of God, fucking rest woman. Now is the time to find alternatives to you running about all over the place: even if it costs you, even if it's just for a week. Talk to your course teachers try to get extensions on any pressing assignments that might be causing you stress. Enlist the assistance of anyone and everyone to run your kids to their various important things. Miss important dates if you have to.

Don't take chances on this Juni.

oh, and hope you feel better soon m'dear. *hugs*

Don't worry, Dana. School's done now, I just have three exams, two Monday, another on Thurs. I feel fine, my BP was 140/100 in the doc's office today, much better. I have a new prescription, one I've taken in the past, so I should be good to go. It's just been a pain in the ass getting to this point. :)

140/100 is NOT good... sure, it's better but not healthy.
Get help with laundry, BMV, etc, or let it slide.
Pick your priorities and work on them alone.

Here, make a list of priorities.

1- Get healthy
2-
3-
4-

Juniper, its time for you now, before you and your family wont have a choice about it.

Okay, this is what we're saying, and it sounds like you know it. You can make plans to slow down all you want, but you need to consider slowing down now; at least temporarily.

My blood pressure has been higher than normal lately too, so I'd like to know what they tell you to reduce it.

As far as being a slacker . . . that made me kinda smile. I hate, hate, hate being busy like that. I'm such a slow energy person, that I can only handle a few things at a time. I've struggled with terrible feelings of guilt over that for much of my life, because our society places such value on overachievement and the woman's rule in taking care of everyone else but herself.

You have to take care of yourself first. Let go some of that stuff. Get your family to help with the laundry and other stuff!

yup. :D


sugar, is most probably a bulging disc pressing on the nerve caused by a combination of too much weird excercise/movement, over-flexibility of the spine, carrying too many things in too many ways, and flabby abs. At least that was the reason the last two times, but it just has never been as severe as this before. Pain never came back after I got home, I took the drugs for the first 12 hours, (well, almost) and then stopped. and I've had no pain since. I'm being careful. Apart from the occasional accident ....like the couple of hours I just spent tidying the garden..... but I made the kids brush up and can the leaves after I raked them and had beest move the heavy stuff.. honest. and now I'm resting and taking a muscle relaxant. :D