So did we, but it was awful. I find even med rare prime rib tragic.... this was well done. A damn shame I tell ya.

Nice!!

Beest makes awesome Yorkshires. we had them for dinner last night in fact. Huge, plate-sized ones filled with beef in gravy :yum:

My best buddy who works at my old job has been emailing me telling me how freaking messed up things are there. As she tells me about what she is going through right now, I thank my lucky stars I am where I am. I like the work, I like the people, I like the paycheck.

I feel bad for her, and the others...but I am SO thankful I got this job.

Yesterday felt bummery, but truly I am lucky.

And you get to goof off all day on the internet.

Nice fare. When we have that, we slather the roast in horseradish. By "we" I mean Pooka. Or Pooka's mom. Calls it "Highland Beef."

Biteth Moi

Aberdeen Angus all the way, eh?

With creamed tatties.

Fixed that for ya.

Cicero's Back!! :) Woo-hoo!

Time to take a real look into my side-business...And get it rollin. I've had good news today!!

This makes me happy. Moving forward.

Yay Cic! Good to see you on a roll!

We've officially moved in to our new house. We still have two moves coming up (one for all the stuff in storage, one for the furniture still up in our town home in Joisey) but we have enough to keep it going in the meantime.

And my mom's coming to visit for 17 hours next week. :p She's passing through on her way to India; she'll be back for a longer stay (3 days) in early February on her way back.

I'm getting there, I'm getting there.
Had a really really hard day yesterday, but today was much better.

Currently flying without anti-depressants thanks to Aylesbury's ridiculous systems of registering with a GP, waiting for transfer of records and then only being able to book either a same-day appointment at 08.00 or a week+ in advance.

So have been getting tearful about just about everything.
Add to that the nightmares and the hateful hurtful insecurity dreams, not getting any benefits and no jobs for more than 20 hours a week being advertised locally... Cried myself to sleep last night (stopped the bad dreams though!)

Hang on, this is the happy thread, right? Right!

I found out about the 08.00 phone call rule today, so tomorrow I will be ready and waiting at 07.59. It will be an emergency appointment (shame, but that's their rules) so they will see me tomorrow. So I'll be back on my tablets by midday latest.

I finally got my first benefit payment through today. Mum & Dad were already going to Milton Keynes, so I went along and spent an hour in the biggest Asda in the South East. I love it. Spent £69 but that was all on non-frivolous food. And a lot was store cupboard items that now won't need to be replaced for months. In which time I may be working anyway.

Mum & I sat down with low fat recipe books and went through what we would be having for dinner for the next week. I will be doing the majority of cooking and have bought at least half the ingredients. Mum won't let me pay any keep while I am unemployed, so this is my way of contributing. She is serious about weight loss too. Dad is going along with it - he has 10lbs to lose (tch!)

I had another Job Centre appointment and have finally identified a job I want to apply for! Wahoo! There just are not jobs out there at present. And yes, I'm including shelf stacking in my vacancy net. I've applied and will keep you up to date. The disability specialist I saw (because of my history of depression and having been signed off previously) was very good to me. It was not a great day to see me, and she was very understanding. But in truth she is there to help me back into work and I could tell she appreciated the fact it was what I wanted to do. Her advice in fact was to be signed off again and do voluntary work to get my confidence back and gain a sense of self worth. The catch 22 with being depressed and out of work is that you face frustration and rejection which is hard to handle when you have a low self image because you are already unemployed etc etc

But I really would rather keep applying and look into voluntary work as something to do while I am applying. After all, you increase your chance of making contacts by meeting people. And there are apparently voluntary admin jobs available.

And finally... I might be on TV tonight :)
More of that later.

Things are getting better and I am still fighting, the whinging and crying notwithstanding. And I am safe, and I am home.

The other day we went to the funeral of my Mum's friend's husband. All the way there in the car I was selfishly thinking of myself. It was the same route Dad always drove me to Amersham station (same town as the Crematorium) but this time I would be coming back with him instead of getting on a train alone. I was amazed at how wonderful that feeling was. The funeral was beautiful btw. Incredibly touching - I really struggled not to bawl.

Anyway, that's my update.

I'm impressed at the amount of fight in ya, girl. Keep plugging away. :)

Hey guys, I have acquired the programs I have been saving for...The qaulity of my little life has just improved by 35 percent.

This ROCKS!!

I think Shawnee's post applies to me too, so thank you Shaw! You rock too!!!

Woo!