I'm glad so much of the drama is over for you IM. I don't think I would have stuck at it for that long. No job is worth that level of shit.

Onwards and upwards mate. That's the only way to go. :)

Classic ... man, that boss is a prick. And an idiot, losing his two most experienced staff. But mostly a prick.

thank, classic. I do remember how miserable things were for you and I was (and really am now!) glad you got to move on. :)

I found out from Cap and Fire 1.0 (we talked for over 2 hours last night) that I should appeal. I really don't want to but we are unsure if that is akin to quitting, in their effed up rules world that they only follow as it suits them.

So I have to call later and make an appt for tomorrow. Then one more trip to get my stuff (even the bestest appeal in the world ain't gonna save me) and it's over.

Parts of my house are now cleaner than they've been in a long time, which feels really good...so there's that.

And as so many have said, including Cap and Fire 1.0: I'm going to be so much better. Right now making myself move is hard, once I'm going I'm doing well. I also need to give myself a tiny break on worrying about the next job. I realized i left my old job on a friday and started at my (still) current job the next monday...I was so excited. Hmmph.

Not that anyone gives a flying fuck but my appointment with madness is tomorrow. I must find mirth and indifference in my little box of goodies.

After that, I promise to expand my feelings of compassion and empathy and watch a video about staying in the moment and feeling for the world around you.

After I go to church.

And confession.

And maybe another few days in la la land so as to erase the damage of a daily dose of 'a little too much fucking compassion if you ask me.'

What do you mean by appointment with madness? Going back to appeal so you can get unemployment? Or do you really mean you're going to lose your marbles. Truly gone fishing, toys in the attic, over the rainbow, batshit.

I have my appointment, as I said before, to 'appeal' so I can be sure there's not some little hidden caveat that if I don't 'appeal' it will be the same as quitting.

I have to jump through hoops to get what I earned; no luxury of 'oh well fuck it I'll just quit or go back or quit or go back.'

And I'm not happy about it and I'm a little angry.

I wait for the preaching to turn into actual action. I won't hold my breath.

I'd be a lot angry.

thanks for the compassion glatt. you actually have always been a caring person and i appreciate that.

for most peoplr, it's just when they feel like it.

We all give a flying fuck, IM. Maybe even two or three. :)

Or it's quiet concern that doesn't always show up on the board but is felt nonetheless. Because sometimes there's so much exhaustion that even posting is too much. But the concern is there.

Or it's concern felt whilst reading the site on a phone and not wanting to post until at a proper computer...

IM: you know damn well we care.

thanks. i was feeling sorry for myself and i wasn't fit for public consumption yesterday.

it will be ok. i didn't expect to feel so crappy, but i'll get through it.

Good luck today.

Did I mention they are fuckers? Just remember that. It's them. Not you.

Best of luck, and lots of strength.

Remember you said this. It is true. Hold these thoughts.

Sent by thought transference

i lived through it, and actually held on to some dignity. now, i wait.

so glad that part is over. thanks, all.

well done!

Yey for you:)

Well done m'dear. Worst is done with now. And you are stronger by the hour.

Sammy Jankis.

OK, whoever.

Anyway, in case you've all been wondering, I've heard nothing since my appeal meeting.

I got a call from D*I*R of H*R* (ix-nay on the oogle-gay) that the courier will be delivering my letter this afternoon. That's how Cap and Fire 1.0 got the final call too.

Ain't this FUN?

Sammy Jankis is a character in the movie Memento. Leonard used Sammy's story as a way to remind himself that he must stay organised and note everything down. Leonard's "writing down" began with a tattoo of Sammy Jankis' name to help him remember.

I hope you remember that you said you'll be ok, that you said you'll get through this. If it takes (a long convoluted story about a tattoo about) Sammy Jankis, so be it.

Ahhh. Thanks.

I'm just at my rope's end. I want this to be over and I've been through so many levels of limbo (if limbo had levels) and it's been a rough couple days.

I know it will be over soon but I can't help but almost expect some last fuckover.

Because, you know, I'm still alive and I'm not insane; not sure that's the outcome they've wanted for all these days. Er...weeks. I mean...months. :(

And I really need a beer and I'm broke until tomorrow. :( :(

C'est fini!

Bravo!

Put some gas on your card and come over for a visit. I've got plenty of beer.

will you get your vaycaypay?

C'est Infini!

You're free.

If it's a nice day, go sit in the sun and breathe deeply. :)

Ha! Brew some monkey beer!

I have to contact HR about all that. I just looked up my bank account and it was the regular old paycheck. Hmmm, I also need to know how I view my pay advices since I'm no longer a part of the system: I need to monitor it, I think.

For the last two days I've been outside. I've been helping with a festival at my favorite park/reserve. My brother's association has an event. I've been burying rocks and digging up rocks (giant hills of sand brought for the event, then we bury various types of rocks and fossils and stuff then the kids get to dig for them and identify what they are) and basically hanging out with hundreds of kindergarten-1st graders. OMG what fun. And being out there...oh yeah, I remember ME. I mean, I feel really good and felt in my element. We do it again tomorrow (it will be moved to the fairgrounds if it rains.) It's been really great for me. I, of course, helped a couple kids 'find' a shark tooth, or some fool's gold. There is limestone, flint, gypsum...etc and so on.

There is also a petting zoo, so today I petted a kangaroo (a tiny one, the guy was holding it like a baby) and a baby cow and alpacas (soooo soft!) and goats.

Kids and animals have always loved me ('cause they don't know any better.) ;)

Anyway, onward and upward. For the first time, I feel really good about this. I feel like I got my life and myself back.

Aside from a little sunburn on my face (which will turn into a tan as always) and some sore feet and some tired muscles (I worked HARD!) I feel better than I have in a long long time.

My brother said he's really proud of how I've dealt with all this. :o

Now, let's just hope that I don't have to fight for what I've earned (it's not completely over yet.)

Thanks everybody!!!!!! :)

Glad you're having fun at the park!

This makes me happy to read. I hope you have many more days like this.

thank you. :)

Nice to see that you're making the most of your free time. :)

Sent by thought transference

Sunshine and exercise are the best. Enjoy the time, Infi. Wishing you well. :)

Yey:)

Well reading all that made me smile! Good for you.
RELAX and enjoy your time in the sun ;)
When that's done file for your UC. Let them be on the defensive for a change.