That sounds awful. Cluster headaches are apparently the most painful thing a human can endure, if wikipedia is to be believed.

When the barometer drops with a big storm, I get storm migraines like Nirvana. I had one episode of cluster headaches back in med school. While they were going on they occurred at precisely the same time each day (3:01 am, I remember well) and lasted 40 minutes; then one day they just stopped. They were bang-your-head-against-the-wall excruciating, but the good thing is you know they'll be gone in a few minutes. A really bad migraine (some of which have also made me bang my head against a wall) that continues through sleep and goes on for hours or days is worse, I think, if only because the misery is prolonged and you don't know when it'll end.

The bone pain from Neulasta on my first chemo cycle (later cycles weren't as bad) and my worst couple of migraines are the worst pains I've ever had. Labor and surgery were easier.

jesus :(

Ouch.

Well, 3:01 seems odd. Are you sure it wasn't 4:00 am?

Luckily not ... from 4 to 6 am is the biological nadir when people are most likely to die. Dodged that bullet!

I so didn;t need to know that!!

I hate needles. Why do nurses have to wake you up all night long just to see if you are alive?? Oh,you are not going to stick anything up my butt. Forget it.End of subject

.. because you're so damned cute?

don't think so babe. i'm looking pretty rough. i appreciate the thought! BTW, I brought the book you sent me. Everybody gets a big laugh. Now that is so damned cute!

Hospitals are the place of no sleep. :(
Also of horrible tests you never knew existed. Feel better so you can get home and get some sleep!

Check your email on Valentines Day. I keep my promises ;)

I know every thing I have done is pointless. My dream are just that I will never achieve them and have truly given up on any kind of success. Survival is my new goal if I can just survive not make anything great or meaningful not change the world not help just survive. I know I will never be happy I have accepted that. I am not depressed, just clear. I see how things arc in my life. Just survival is all that can be truly accomplished.

I'm broken and can't be fixed. I once was a person of importance with a family. Now, I am a shell of what I was. I am coming to terms with it and simply putting one foot in front of the other. You made a good point & I agree. We all must accept the road we travel now which was built on the mistakes of when we were young and invincible.

When we were young and invincible. I know the thing you speak precise.

Sarge, not to make light of what you are going through but you could re-frame your experience in a positive light. In many ways you are in an enviable position; you are a clean slate and free to re-invent yourself. Obviously, you have a more limited set of choices than you did when you were young and invincible, but you are now older and wiser and in a better position to see what didn't work in the past and make new choices based on that.

The hardest part is letting go of what you want or wanted, letting go of the desire for something you can't have.

Amen to that, Ed Earl.