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Yep, still thinking. Still hasn't lost its allure. Still want to get the hell out of my life.

On the other hand, it also still hasn't become any less impossible, and I'm getting better at internally acknowledging that. I'm just crushing my soul back into its box, rather than realizing that the box was so great to begin with.

Four days ain't enough. We all want to get the hell out occassionally -and occassionally doesn't necessarily mean fleetingly.....

Thread was started on the 3rd, had been going on for 4 days at that point. We're up to 2 weeks now... but I know 2 weeks still ain't bad for a midlife crisis. I'll let you all know when I buy the Porsche.

sry, I meant to check that and got distracted, but rly, you only need panic when it gets to years

Give it until a week from Tuesday.

Are the daydreams getting in your way of say ... doing the washing, feeding minifob, or dealing with other and sundry responsibilities?

Not unless those sundry responsibilities require me to act like I care while I'm doing them. Nah, that's hyperbole, I'm actually quite good at putting on the smile when I need to. It's all internalized.

then dream on...

It's at the extreme of unhealthy when you contemplate suicide because it's so impossible and you can't bear to not live the dream.

I know. This is me.

would a brief torrid affair with an overweight, but undeniably sexy and amiable Yankee help alleviate the doldrums you suffer from? I only ask because I care. And because I'll be in Charlotte in early September.

How does the Porche drive? They ain't really all that are they. Get a 280z.

If her answer is yes, then I would probably fly down there. Just sayin.

Clod, it sounds to me like you're skirting around the edges of depression. Don't let it go on for too long. Might be time to have a chat with a doc. xx

Depression? Don't go to the doctor! It's a lot more fun to self-medicate

Yeah, but the right doc can give you a script for some really good stuff to self-medicate with! ;)