I am a classhole

I am a person of extremes. I have very few in-betweens but I can shoot to either extreme in 4.2 flat.

I'm OCD, but not in any productive ways.

I'm a pushover.

Another procrastinator here. It's pretty bad. If I didn't procrastinate so much at work, I'd really be pretty freaking amazing, and probably not stuck in middle management, but instead, I'm just average. I can do amazing things when I work hard and stay focused, but I can never maintain it.

jinx tells me I'm passive aggressive....but I think she's just being a bitch.

but seriously folks...

I escape. I don't want to dwell on problems, so I get involved in 'fun' stuff, and forget them. I know when I face them, I can typically solve them, but it's like I need to have some stressor looming over me for some reason. Couple that with my habit of not wanting to talk about things that bother me and I come off as deceptive to those closest to me.

I also have very low will power when it comes to indulging myself. I don't have any patience when I want something.

boy, I suck.

Well, you'll always have a pal in Sheldon...

Forgiveness is hard to work into my persona. I rarely forget a wrong. I give everyone I meet 100 points, you lose them on your own based on your own actions. I am really big into self responsibility. Do the crime, do the time. But do whatever you want, just know they come with responsibility and consequence.

I am big in to vengence. Screw me, I will screw you a hundred times over what you did to me. A flaw but I am working on it.

I am sure there are more.

AM deceptive. see how passive aggression works? I don't even realize I'm doing it. saying I 'come off as' puts the onus on the perceiver. If I do things that SEEM deceptive, I AM being deceptive.

I'm perfect.

I dont know...perception isn't always reality. And 'deception' has a bad connotation to it. I am purposely deceptive a lot of times, but its usually just because I don't have the energy or desire to go into a big explanation. Or maybe I havent really sorted out my feeling enough to do so yet.

I have no patience for people who play matyr or people who're passive aggressive. If you've got a problem, spit it out and get it over and done with. Don't give me snide comments and expect me to 'get it'.

I'm really bad for giving people the silent treatment. I don't know if that means I'm passive aggressive too, but usually it's because I'm just so pissed off I don't want to open my mouth for fear of what's going to come out. I'm working on that one. It's not productive in any way.

I am very loyal, but once someone fucks me over, that's pretty much it. Not too many second chances around here. For this reason, I have a fairly small circle of friends, but I know I can trust them.

That leads to the next issue. I have very bad trust issues. It takes me a long time to trust, and if it's ever broken, I don't think I ever really get over it. I need to work on this more.

I have very little patience these days. That goes for behaviours and actions. I can't stand people who dither. If you're going to do it...just farking do it for fucks sake. If you're not, let someone who's more motivated than your lazy arse get to it now!

I don't forgive very easily.

wow is that passion or vehemence ?

I don't think either really. Just an honest description of my flaws as I see them and how they affect my life.

I think maybe I just didn't try and sugar coat my flaws. ;)

Or what you perceive to be flaws.;)

Well maybe Bruce, but really, why should anyone have to live up to my expectations? Why should other people be made to feel untrustworthy because I've got a problem? Why should others have to find another way to deal with anger just because I don't like the way they do it? I dunno. Those are just the thing I think about. :)`