ugh. Daughter No. 2's in a world of hurt and I am vacillating back and forth. If I move, I give up my medical insurance (and I need medical work done); a lot of my financial security (but I could possibly make $10K more a year elsewhere); my chance at buying a house . . .

fuck. I'm just gonna let it stew for a while. I may need to spend some of my saved money helping Daughter get a place--she's talking about going to a women's shelter right now.

Oh no! That would give up your chance of visiting Cicero this year!!
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No really, if it weren't for my hasty not-well-thought-out decisions sometimes....I think I would be in an incredible rut in some small stinky town working on a factory line or something, married to a guy named, Guy, that wears raccoon hats, and drinks a case of natural light every day before going down to the unemployment line. (again) Our cutlass sierra from the 80's would be in good condition aside from guy's fallen roaches, burning the seats while he was driving around while I would be at work for my 10 hour shifts, at minimum wage in a poverty stricken area. Ok that's just one possibility.....and that can go on and on...anyhoo....

I was talking about moving and over-worrying in the other post for a reason. :)

Cheer up and think about how to solve the issue and enhance your life at the same time. Then you would just be enhancing your life and there would be no problem at all....You are a creative person.....I'm sure you'll figure out how to make things life-enhancing rather than problems to deal with. ?

(don't listen to me I'm no sage)

Hitchhike to the great northwest.... naked.

Even my Ex thinks it might be a good idea for me to move. But there are still financial concerns that I have to address.

I've pretty much decided to plan to make A CHANGE--but I'm keeping my options open as to what that change may be. And I am working on a timetable of several months. Not too long, because I could subside into inertia again; but not fast enough to make me panic about it.

So, for now, I'm concentrating on:
1) improving my health and appearance in order to improve my chances at a good job. (Fat people get paid less).
2) continuing to improve my job skills (I had a whole series of courses planned out before this)
3) see if I can improve my credit situation and financial stuff; e.g., a moratoriam on buying new "stuff" as much as possible
4) Declutter my house in preparation for a move. Get rid of the shit that accumulates, and make provisions for ceiling to floor cleaning.

After a few months of this regime I may be able to see my way clearer.

ETA: and one more thing--make sure I spend as much time as possible with the daughter and grandkids that are here!

Maybe go visit when you can line up some job interviews, instead of taking such a risk?

Cloud, rents are high in Portland , just so ya know and it fricken rains all the time, there's mold and year round allergies. I never get to see the sun it seems.



wise
wise a.........acre

My wise mother she say "It is better to regret the things you HAVE done than the things you have NOT" ...

Don't move up there unless she wants you to, otherwise you will both be within distance and lonely.