CICERO!! Story, PLEASE!!! lol

Oh I have to get off my ass to get this breast ex-rayed and there was a blood test done to see what is wrong with my glands, if there is something wrong with my glands. There is a minute chance that I have a tumor in my head, but I don't think I do. That has to be ruled out for the time being, and I have to go see what's up with the lump in my breast. Plbbbt.

Why can't they just run me through a machine, or check all of it out at once, like on star trek with that wand? I don't like all of this appointment here, appointment there stuff. And I had to pay for blood work out of pocket yesterday, to check on a brain tumor I don't have....

Now I know I have a little cyst in my breast. I don't think it's a big deal, but they are talking crazy. And I know after all of this testing and money it's taking, I'll be fine and have a clean bill of health. This is a reminder that I need to actually call and make my x-ray appointments...*sigh*

I call bullshit.

This is dumb.....I just want them to extract the little cyst with a needle and get it over with. This is wasting my time.

Yuck. And further, ick. I hate doctors, for just that reason: piecemeal examinations. For crying out loud, just get it all done in one fell swoop, eh?

Well, however you need to get it done, get it done so WE can stop worrying, k?

:)

What's upsetting me today...

...is that the office I work in will be closed as of 02JAN09.

I've been too long out of the job search mode.

I have a 3yr-old daughter.

We just refinanced our house.

I'm trying to stay positive.

Shit, ferret, that's some bloody awful timing *frowns* sorry to hear it.

Good that you're trying to stay positive. I know you've been out of job search mode a long time, but trust me it's like riding a bike; you'll be running off CVs and wowing interviewers before you know it.[*]

Good luck with it, and anytime you need to vent, you know where we are *smiles*


[*eta] Britspeak to Merkin translation: 'running off CVs' = 'printing out/emailing resumes'

You're sweet Shawnee, it did have me all shook up for a couple of hours when they told me what the tests were for. My knees were like jelly, knocked a little, and I was a little shaky,then I realized that I do not have a brain tumor and probably don't have any cancer at all. So I'm over it. Now they (the medics)need to get over it and we will all be happy.

Even my husband is skeptical, he's like..."yea, cicero, there's nothing wrong with you". And I'm like. "hmmm, yea, good point!" Thanks.

They are testing to make sure I don't have something, rather than to make sure I do. Big difference there.

Of course, my body did not understand the logic at first, and did what it wanted to do. My body said: Uhhh what? *shake and disassociate*


Ok so they tapped into my fear, and my imaginings were trumped by the reality. It will be over soon, and my imagination can go back to normal, and so can theirs. My husband thinks it's all pretty stupid, and he's right. This is dumb.

It's stupid, but it is necessary.
Like when I had to have my liver tested. There were absolutely no signs that there was a problem, it was "just in case" but it scared the bejesus out of me til the results came through (I'm with LJ on being all bejesusless now).

You win either way. You're either as fit as a butcher's dog and get to sneer and tut and say, "Well I knew that anyway!" And even if a worst case scenario you will have identified something and be able to take some action.

ETA - just finished typing and only then appreciated the financial aspect, sorry. Still, like having a full survey on a house you don't end up buying, it's surely better to spend some money now just to be certain.

Ferret I'm sorry to hear about your job. On the plus side, at least you have some notice and can start planning. My thoughts are with you.

Oh hey Cic, glad you've got a handle on it *smiles* and Sundae's right, better to spend some money now to be certain.

holy crap---is everybody getting sick or what? keep us informed, cic!

Sorry to hear it, ferret. Best wishes on pulling a decent plan together.

Ditto what everyone else said, Cicero. I hope you're right.

I noticed some black mold growing over there behind the furnace. Maybe we need to get this Cellar cleaned up.

Hmmph. Is the birthday list broken? Hmmph. :(

But I really appreciate y'all getting me a new president for my birthday. ;)

It's my dad's birthday too. Happy birthday dad!