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Big Sarge 09-19-2011 02:20 PM

Can't drink tequila straight. I'm too much of a wuss. I love margaritas, but I'm more of a rum fan. I love mojitos!! Plus, I'll take a shot of shine (quality not made in a radiator)

Plus I'm getting a little worried about mixing alcohol with my valuim and xanax. I did that earlier in this episode and I guess I'm lucky I didn't kill myself.

BigV 09-19-2011 03:32 PM

tis clear as a cloudless sky ye jes need bettr tay-keel-lar.

Big Sarge 10-05-2011 06:10 AM

Spent the day at the VA in Memphis. Guess what?? Another possible diagnosis. I have appointments on the 13th, 14th, and 17th. I'll fill you in more after this because this is getting so very confusing. BTW, my cortisol is almost in normal ranges, but my human growth hormone is high. Testosterone is doing well with the Axiron

Gravdigr 10-05-2011 02:25 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Big Sarge (Post 757025)
...one of my cases was the rape of a 12 year old (carries life sentence).

It should.

Big Sarge 10-06-2011 05:56 PM

Sometimes I think my illness would be cured by a good jug of shine & a beautiful Brit. If not, at least I would go with a smile on my face

BigV 10-06-2011 07:01 PM

Big Sarge:

You should watch this video. It's about a guy who's been in the news recently, Steve Jobs. He definitely had his shit together, and this is an excerpt of what he said to some young people recently.
Quote:

Originally Posted by Steve Jobs
snip--

...

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas.

...

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

...

There's a lot more and it's all very good, please do read it. The stuff I believe, I *KNOW* on this subject sounds like a fucking Hallmark card. I won't drown you in my treacle. Jobs makes my point. This is the life you have *now*. Live it, don't just wish it.

Big Sarge 10-14-2011 08:29 PM

Nive post BigV. Here's what I know as of today. Possible Neurosarcadosis (6mm) affecting the pituitary, however everything is within norm taking the Axiron gel except for elevated HGH levels. They have just identified a 1cm mass in my right temporal lobe. I still don't know what this will mean until the doctor visit on the 17th.

If anyone knows anything about temporal lobe massses, please fill me in. I admit I am a little scared

Big Sarge 10-15-2011 08:29 AM

well reading about temporal lobe tumors have scared the shit out of me!!! has anyone on here had one??

classicman 10-15-2011 10:20 AM

Try reading this page. I have a caringbridge account for my son. There are many who use carepages as well. Depending upon your situation, you may want to set one up. You can also find others who may be in a similar situation who can offer guidance and/or support.
I ran a search and got this page. (dunno if you can see it or if you have to register first)
Found: 55 CarePages website results; 213 Profile results; 185 Discussion forum results

Wishing you the best.
IF you want more info, PM me.

DanaC 10-15-2011 10:44 AM

I went looking online and found quite a few people with less scary stories Sarge. Lots of people seemingly have surgery and treatment and make good recoveries.

monster 10-15-2011 04:15 PM

Of course you're scared. But to be honest, I'm seeing mostly good stories too. Mostly involving almost immediate improvement in symptoms and very few side effects -and most of those manageable with a little cognitive reprogramming. Chin up, dude. :)

Gravdigr 10-15-2011 04:31 PM

Good vibes to ya, ya big ol' Sargey thing you.

Lola Bunny 10-15-2011 10:15 PM

Sarge, doing research will only freak you out. Take a few deep breaths and try not to think about it. Go out and do something fun to keep your mind off of things.

Sundae 10-16-2011 01:49 PM

In the end, all I can honestly say is Bloody Hell.
Haven't you been through enough?

I can't suggest anything, or make anything better.
Just to say hang in there and lots of love.

BrilliantDisguise 10-16-2011 02:17 PM

Wishing you the best Sarge.


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