Hello to so many familiar names.

Mine is not going to be familiar to you, although I used to hang out in the Cellar a lot. I changed my name legally early last year, after a year of multiple severe emotional traumas. Along with it, I ditched my email addresses, amongst other things. I used to be sandypossum in the Cellar.

I have severe PTSD and I've also lost the ability to think in straight lines, or express myself well. I find it hard to maintain focus on anything complex. Can no longer read anything more than short articles, can't even watch many movies as I can't hold the narrative. Communication is difficult for me, but it's one of the main keys to any kind of recovery. I live in a remote area, and due to what happened, even within my area I am quite isolated.

A few weeks ago I remembered the Cellar. I had forgotten about all of you, and the level of conversation here. So I tried to come back but could not rememer my password, or access my old email address to get a reset so I had to join again. I can't make any new posts as a newbie - it said I had to reply to other posts first to show I'm real (fair enough) so here I am.

Am I right that there are far fewer Cellarites now?? It seems less busy here. But I was pleased to see many names I recognised from back then.

Do any of you remember me as sandypossum? I'm in Australia

I would really like to pick your brains on advice on how to move forward. (I don't want a shoulder to cry on.) I spent a year on the move (basically homeless though not destitute, just moving from place to place, wherever it felt safe, through Australia, Sweden, Belgium, New Zealand and Thailand) and in that time met a lot of people. I found that little diamonds of wisdom would come from the most unlikely places - little things that pointed which way to go, things that would alter my perspective. I don't think my situation is that special, but it is rather unusual. I did something rather drastic to survive what happened.

But to start with - hello to all who remember me, and those I don't know - and I'm hoping it's as cosy here as it used to be

Cheers, Tinker / Sandy

Yeah Sandy, a lot of the old timers have moved on, and even the ones still here cheat on facebook and the like. ;)

I'll admit I'm a Facebooker, but it's harder finding an intelligent bunch there.

By the way, Bruce, my new name is Tinker. I don't use the S word at all any more (only used it here in case anyone remembered me).

Hi Tinker - I remember you. Sounds like you've properly been through the mill since you were last here.

Hi Tinker, welcome back!

What limey said.

hey now.

If you're after advice, it might be good to start with what series of events or situations hurt you. And why it's still a problem. You're Ok now?

welcome back

You don't need to go all the way back to your relationship with your mother, just what's happened since your last reentrance here.

Hi Tinker,
I remember you too. Welcome back!

Thank you all for the warm welcome back!

Once I was allowed to post a new thread, I did that, and rather than continue in two threads, I'll just post there if that's okay

Jump to 36 minutes.

Right at the end of this one, he seems to contradict what Tolle says. That you ARE your thoughts. Tolle says you're not.

The distinction is that Krishnamurti is saying that the concept of 'you' includes the thoughts. The observer then, is the 'not you'. Or the attention. And the attention is a universal thing. Not discreet to each individual. On that level we are all connected as though we were, each of us, eyeballs or portals or maybe filter is a better word.... All looking out at the world from the same head/mind /energy.

I think.

I'm not so sure about universal awareness. Maybe as an analogy.... But then, if it's the same... Like if we didn't have words... The same perception beneath/before our interpretation of incoming info.... Maybe that's the same in all of us? But does that mean it's one larger awareness seeing through us? No way to know as we are all individual.

He says that's what compassion and love are. That shared source.

Mind bending

I remember you, sandy :) I saw one of your old posts just a few weeks back and wondered about you